I’ve been in love with you for the longest and it sucks because we don’t talk and it seems like in ur mind we didn’t even happen. I knew your feeling and I respected them. But I can only bite my tongue for so long. I have a fear of being forgotten. I have faced my fear and acknowledged it. I don’t understand how someone can come into someone else’s life, make them care so much for you, tear out their heart and just leave and never look back on it. How can you do that? I really felt loved by u, and I tried my hardest to love you back. I usually let go of things because they aren’t as reckless. Feeling have been bottling up and I’m trying to let it go but I can’t forget those memories. I don’t want to. How can you forget something like that? Something so impacting. You were always something I looked forward to, everyday. Your calls, texts, posts, messages. You made me happy. I fell in love for the person you were, the real you. I accepted everything that came with you, all the skeletons in ur closet, ALL that baggage. I loved ur insecurities. Maybe I’m just a lovable person, who knows? But I put my life on pause for u, with that little bit of hope in my heart hoping you’d talk to me. I could never tell, you would always feel so strong over the littlest thing. One day you’d tell me you love me and that you would enjoy being my boyfriend, other days you ignore me, trying to hurt my feelings. I never knew what was coming. Day after day. The truth of the matter is we actually dated, we fell in love with each other, we were a happy couple. You meant everything to me. Now, I probably wouldn’t notice u if I bumped into you. Maybe u’ve changed, maybe ur fronting, maybe this, maybe that.. I cannot accept the fact I buried myself deep in this hole and I can’t get myself out. I want to wish you the best in life and love, but the hurt part of me doesn’t. It wants you to feel exactly what it felt, all the suffering, agony, pain, 10 fold. I’m sorry if u went through all this urself, it sucks trust me. Don’t take someone else’s happy just cos u can’t find ur own. Maybe u’ve moved on in your life and ur doing better things. The most painful part is u didn’t even tell me sorry. You couldn’t acknowledged the fact you hurt me, after you promised you wouldn’t. It’s took you 2 years to earn all the trust and respected you had, then u abuse it. I tried talking to u, but then you blocked me. I opened up for this one night to mend things with you. As soon as I opened my mouth, you shot me down. I don’t get it, and never will.. ♥ Love u always, love you none. I’m done.